I see your eyes in the moon

I was walking through the crowded hallways of my school the other day when I heard someone
say something that really made me think.

"This girl I used to be friends with ...."

A normal start of a sentence correct? Well this moment it struck me differently. It made me think about all the friends I used to have and how quickly I have moved on from them. There are plenty of people I know that I used to be friends with that I never speak of anymore. How do we let people just drop out of our lives without even giving a second glance?

We, as human beings have so many emotions but I don't think we realize how quickly we can filter through people. I think about all the people I have known in my life and I wonder where they have all gone. Not to say that I don't have any friends now, because I have many, but why is it that within three years or so they will probably be replaced with new friends. All the memories that I shared will be replaced with new ones and the old one will barely be a blur.

As I sat outside tonight, starring at the moon I wondered who else was starring at that same moon with me. Was it someone I had known in the past?

While in a long-distance relationship not too long ago I told my girlfriend to look at the moon while on the phone. She went outside and did just that. I told her it made me feel closer to her that though we were 2000 miles away from each other we were looking at the same object at the same time. She agreed completely and felt more in love with me than she ever thought possible. It was at that moment that I realized how many people there were in this world and how I would filter through what would and is probably going to feel like a million of them.

A month later she broke up with me and told me that the moon would never be the same to her. The funny thing is I don't talk to her anymore. It makes me wonder if she still thinks of me when she looks at the moon. Are the people that I filtered through ever going to come back into my life? Why is it that when some people can just let go of others completely there is always the other one who is holding on dearly to the thought of them?

I try to be cold..

Yeah I thought this was it

True love had arrived

So I fell in

But what a surprise

And I bought you a ring

And I asked you to wear it

So when I found it on the bathroom sink

I shoulda known I was in for it

How do I release this?

And how do I let you go?

How do I mend my heart when I feel so low?

And how do I talk to you without crying?

And how do I let you go when I still love you?

I still love you

So I don't know if I can be just your friend

Damn you for not trying

And fuck you for standing there smiling

I know what it's like to not be able to feel

And I know what it's like, yeah

To just kiss someone and make them fall in love with you

And then you walk away

To just make somebody come a little closer

So you can push them away...

How do I release this?

And how do I let you go?

How do I mend my heart when I feel so low?

And how do I talk to you without crying?

And how do I let you go when I still love you?

I still love you...